Entireworld recycled cotton tee (small) | I purchased this myself,
but received one in large as a gift from the brand several months ago
Elizabeth Suzann silk Andy Trousers (medium, regular – hemmed) |
purchased using a generous GC from Elizabeth Suzann
Stella McCartney bag (secondhand) | via The Real Real
Sometimes you just have to wear the pants.
I had these all ready to sell this week (along with my cotton canvas andy trousers – up on slowre tomorrow!), but I kept second-guessing myself. There’s not a HUGE difference in size between the small and the medium, and more than anything I like to wear my silk pants for traveling, and I didn’t want them to be too tight anywhere (in the waist especially), or not have enough room in the hips.
It was really only when I fixated on the sides of the legs in the mirror (you can see in the second picture that they are a little wide/large in the thighs) that the pants bothered me at all. Wearing them, working in them, sitting in them, lounging in them, was comfortable, and I didn’t give a shit if they were a little wider in the thighs than the small was. And since the small pair isn’t mine, I didn’t wear them around enough or sit in them to get a good feel for how they’d do.
Sometimes I think, the ES pants you have right now are worth more than the ones you will have in two months, lol. Or a bird in the hand, as it were.
I am also irrationally afraid that I’m not going to be able to sustain this weight for long, and maybe I should have some things around that don’t JUST barely FIT me – that have a little room to wiggle. I’ve never been able to stay under 140 IN MY ENTIRE LIFE; 140 -145 is sort of my body’s set point – where it’s happiest, but most of my life I’ve been above that. But I’ve stayed between 130 and 135 all year so far, without much effort, well aside from the fact that I just don’t have the capacity to eat very much at a time since my fractured jaw in December last year (so long ago!!).
Not a reason to buy clothes that are too big for me, but I also don’t need to swing the pendulum all the way around to only having things that fit me when I’m not bloated, or when I’m at exactly 135 pounds.
I loved these pants the moment I received them from ES and in the weeks since I’ve been overthinking and analyzing them TO DEATH. They are wonderful pants and fit me well. They are comfortable and easy to wear. The small might fit me a little better, but they also might not, who knows? Maybe I’ll try a small in a different color at some point. Or maybe I won’t. For now, I’m going to just wear the pants and be happy with them because they are lovely and they are what I have 🙂