Ilana Kohn Caroline Pants (small) | they’re on sale!
Entireworld recycled cotton tee
Everlane cashmere crew (several yrs old) | secondhand black cashmere at The Real Real
Hansel from Basel socks
I am feeling mostly myself lately, thank goodness; I have only occasional queasiness and I’m getting better at dealing with the constant fatigue. Food issues are so weird. I can’t stomach coffee, which is sad because it’s my favorite. And I don’t really feel like eating much of anything, until I crave something, and then WATCH OUT. Lately, I’ve been craving cookies. And I’m trying not to be too hard on myself for eating cookies.
What’s harder on me now is all the THINKING. WORRYING. What – ifs.
Next week I have my 10-week appointment during which I’ll have bloodwork done – I’m getting all the testing: I want to know the sex, and what, if any, genetic abnormalities the fetus might have.
I’m managing to keep myself calm and steady for the most part though; I’ve worked through a lot of the anxious feelings I had. I also keep myself occupied enough so that I don’t OVER think everything. I learned that early on, and in general it’s a good rule of thumb for me. The only time it’s really a problem is when I wake up at night (WHICH I DO NOW. UGH) and have trouble going back to sleep. My mind races, and worries, and frets, and goes places I’d never willingly take it.
Sometimes I can focus on my breath and bring myself back to reality, but other times I just have to pick up my kindle and read until I fall asleep again.
We are so early still. Although it seems like we are further along in this process, for some strange reason. Time feels like it’s moving very slowly and I have to constantly remind myself that I am still in early pregnancy. Anything can happen.
Anything can happen anytime of course.
But I am a firm believer in feeling all the feels. I let myself feel EVERYTHING. Then I ugly cry in the shower. After that, I’m usually okay. I can move on and know that I am strong and I can handle whatever comes my way.
Also, cookies seem to help 😉 Or at least not being hard on myself about the cookies helps LOL