Yes, that’s a new tattoo. (it’s a POSITIVE sign. To remind me to stay positive 😉 – and it’s in #ff0099, which is the hot pink color I’ve been using on this blog for 10 years). No, I wasn’t planning to get one; it was pretty impulsive, but I LOVE IT. Because, you know me. Which means you probably also know that I don’t do very many impulsive things. ANY impulsive things really. But lately, I’ve done two: gotten the tattoo, and bought my new MZ Wallace travel bag.
I am tired of always second-guessing myself. MYSELF. How crazy is that? Our first impressions mean a lot, but I usually ignore them. Granted, I don’t often have first impressions that are “gasp! I love that!!!” like I did with the MZ Wallace bag, but when I do, I think I should run with it. And I did. So what if this floral bag WITH COLOR doesn’t “fit” with my normal aesthetic as others may see it, or even as I see it sometimes, I still love it. I worry too much about fitting in with an “idea” of how I should look or how I want to look, without actually living in the moment and just looking like me – whoever that is at the moment.
That doesn’t make a lot of sense, but it does to me. I think too much. Over-analyze EVERYTHING. On the whole analyzing a situation isn’t a terrible thing, but I do it all the time, and way too often, taking it to the extreme. Which IS a terrible thing. So, I’m training myself to try and let go more often, enjoy the moment, and focus on what really resonates down deep inside of me. Focus on what makes me HAPPY. And giddy. And what makes me smile. I smiled a lot yesterday, which is something I haven’t done in a while.
Sometimes, you just have to get the tattoo.