Ilana Kohn Kimbo dress (medium) | seems to be sold out in this color
Birkenstock Arizona sandals | purchased secondhand
I’m not even sure what to say anymore. Obviously…I haven’t posted in a LONG time. Is anyone still out there? 😉
I hope you are all well. We are still doing fine. Hawk is eight months now and crawling all over the place. As you can see from my new office space (his room is where my office was), he has an enclosure there, as well as downstairs, so that he’ll stay put when I need him to, and stay away from the stairs. Otherwise, when I sit on the floor with him, all he wants to do is climb/crawl over me, back and forth. But if he sees one of Dagny’s treats/cookies laying around, he takes off like a bat out of hell towards it. He’s FAST.
He also moved into his own room a couple weeks ago. It happened a bit earlier than I had planned, but it was getting really disruptive for him in our room with nap times, etc., and I sort of wanted him to have his own space. The problem is it’s upstairs – we have a master on main, which I HATE now, loved before Hawk LOL – and I was a basketcase for a few nights; he felt so far away. He did well after one night though, and he LOVES to play in his room with his books now.
He’s also weaning himself from nursing, sort of. For a few days all he wanted to do was bite me, so I pulled him away. Now, we only nurse in the morning, and very rarely also at night if he seems to want it, or wakes up inconsolable. I’m conflicted about stopping nursing him though. I had thought I’d go ahead and wean him since he’s down to once a day anyway, but I still enjoy the time he does nurse, even if it’s only for a couple minutes on each side. The main reason I would wean him is to try and get my hormones/weight/pain levels back under control. I’m trying not to get my hopes up, but from what I’ve heard/read, and what my PT told me, about six months after weaning you can feel a lot better. I’m almost THAT desperate to feel better, but not quite.
I can’t tell if I have less pain overall, or if I’m just better at suffering through it LOL. I’ve started riding the Peloton again regularly, and I feel a lot better when I do, interestingly enough. My thighs still hurt a lot, my back sometimes, my wrist/thumb only when I pick Hawk up (haha), and NOW, I have plantar fasciitis. Face plant. What ELSE can happen? No, don’t answer that. A lot more can happen, and I’m grateful that my aches and pains are manageable.
So enough about that, let’s talk about clothes and shopping. As you can see, I’ve added several things to my wardrobe lately (I’ve purged a lot too). I’ve gained more weight recently; I’m about five/ten pounds heavier than I was when I was pregnant. It’s almost like my body is just trying to hold on to, or pile on all the weight/fat now, as a cushion? a barrier? I don’t know, but it’s disconcerting. Yes, I’m doing my fair share of baking, and Leo started making sourdough bread, but I’m not eating enough to gain that much weight. It’s another reason why I’m sort of keen to wean Hawk, just to see what happens to my body.
I’m also pretty sure now, that whatever happens, my body will never look/feel like it did before I was pregnant. I’m not complaining about that, but I don’t think my “new” body will work with the clothes I saved, and I’m also learning what styles seem to work best with my body as it is. All that is to say there’s a lot of trial and error going on in my closet; I’m adding and deleting a lot of items.
But IF I’m going to spend money now, I’m going to make a conscious effort to spend it where it can have an impact. I want the small designers I follow and buy from to stick around after the pandemic, and I believe (I know!) that every sale helps right now. So I’ve purchased directly from Ilana Kohn and Ace & Jig, and I bought my Black Crane pants from Covet & Lou.
I’m really enjoying the BC pants and duster from Ace & Jig (can you believe all the color??), but I haven’t worn the IK dress yet because it’s been cool, and I’ve been waiting to wash it. I definitely get dressed every day and right now, it’s really important to me to have something enjoyable to wear. Not just something that looks pretty, and that I love, but something that FITS my body and my life at the moment. These things all do.
I really hope you are all doing well. I miss you.
Enjoying his book in the sun 😉