also…Hawk was one month old yesterday 🙂
Guys. This baby wearing thing may be life-changing. I have this Solly Baby wrap and a linen ring sling from Wild Bird but I haven’t quite been able to get the hang of the ring sling; there’s a pretty steep learning curve for that one IMO. This wrap is very easy to put on, easy to get Hawk into, and feels more secure than the other generally. The modal is HOT though (which is why I wanted the linen), mostly for Hawk, so even though he passed out immediately when I got him settled in, I wonder how long he’ll last in there.
For now though, he is happy, I am happy (I can type with both hands! yay!), and all is well with the world. Yesterday, not so much LOL. I had a minor breakdown mid-afternoon, but recovered quickly after a good sob. He just wasn’t happy much when he was awake yesterday and he was awake A LOT. I fed him as often as I could, swaddled him, shushed him, rocked him, and not much seemed to work. Then he passed out after eating and I was afraid to put him down for fear he would start screaming again. So even though I needed to pee, eat, and do laundry, I sat with him attached to my chest for as long as he was asleep.
Then when he woke up and started screaming, I lost it. Leo took him for a ride in the car until it was time for him to eat again and I settled down, and then everything was fine.
I could have asked for help earlier. I could have tried to put him down so I could pee. But if you know me at all, you know that I don’t ask for help. And I will abide a great deal of personal discomfort to provide comfort to a dog or baby LOL. Dagny used to steal my spot on the bed when I’d get up in the middle of the night and NOT move, so I’d try to squeeze myself into position anywhere on the bed that I could instead of disturb her at all. Of course now I do the same times a million with Hawk.
Motherhood is an exercise in balance, and I see that I could easily slide over too far and lose myself in the process if I’m not careful. Being able to use both my hands is a step in the right direction. Now, how do I ask for help ?? 😉