Organic by John Patrick Potato Sweater (many many years old)
Everlane muscle tank
Mother Roller Ankle Chew maternity jeans (size 29)
Dansko clogs
Transience camo swing bag (gift for review)
I am tired and flailing and feeling inadequate. BUT I had a great dr. appointment yesterday and the long ultrasound where the tech measures everything and looks closely at the organs, etc. (also, made sure he is indeed a boy!). She repeated how “perfect” he is a few times, which made me feel good, but also annoyed, because what is perfect?? But yes, also reassured and happy that things seem to be progressing as they should.
You could say, if you dare, that I’m getting excited now? In my own way, of course, which is quite subdued LOL. It almost just feels like I’m ready for him to be here; forget the next 18-20 weeks of waiting – and so I am excited for that next phase. I also know that I should appreciate and enjoy THIS phase, which is rather nice lately. And I do, appreciate it. I feel great, I’m having (a little too much) fun buying some things to dress my bump, and I have a lot of family time coming up through the end of April.
But after sleeping well for a little while, I’m back to being wide awake for 2-3 hours starting at about 3 AM the last several days. It is brutal. I try to read and fall back asleep, but it’s not working so well and I end up just tossing SO MUCH SHIT around in my brain for hours. Sometimes I feel inspired and think of things to write about, but don’t want to get up and do it because then I’ll REALLY be awake. Ugh.
Hence the tired, and flailing and feeling inadequate. When I finally go back to sleep and get up around 8-ish, I feel like I’ve wasted time in the middle of the night doing nothing. Which is silly, I know, but that is what I feel.
And also I want to eat all the sour candy. And/or cookies.
Should I talk about what I’m wearing though? I’m so happy to have jeans I can wear now, and really pleased with this over-the-belly version by Mother, which is my favorite denim brand ATM. They’re super-comfortable and I love the way they look (I will seek out this style after pregnancy). I may not have bought them at full price, but I feel good about what I paid for them – around $166 with 25% off and an extra 10% for signing up for emails (which I promptly unsubscribed from because I was getting TOO MANY).
Also, I really love the Transience swing bag and I promise I’ll have a full review soon. I can’t think of anything negative to say about it honestly. It works really well now and can see it being a great diaper bag later.
I have heard that a little snack can put a pregnant woman back to sleep…
WHAT?
i’m totally trying that tonight. will keep some almonds by the bed 😉
You look fabulous, Grechen. So excited for your whole family! What you have is called terminal wakefulness (yeah, how does knowing what it’s called help?). I had it for a few months, and my friend (the ever-so-clever psychiatrist) suggested that I pick one thing I was fixating on and get up out of bed and do something about that thing. After a few nights of forcing myself to get up out of the warm, snuggly bed and actually do something, my brain said “Hmmm, maybe not” and I went right back to sleep. Maybe combine that with the almonds!
Try audiobooks in your earphones. Listen to Gone With the Wind. Great for a real snooze………….And its 49 hours long!!!! You look great!
lol. i actually just decided to give audioboooks a try…thanks!!
yes!! i will totally try that, although, i hate the idea of actually getting up out of bed LOL – it’s hard enough to make myself get up to go pee. i have always heard that though: it’s better to get up and do something than just lay there thinking about it. it’s just so hard to do!!
The best trick I’ve learned so far to stop my mind from running away and to fall asleep is this: think of a simple word with no repeating letters, such as ROSE, now for each letter of that word think of words starting with that letter. Your mind will wander but just come back to the exercise. I’ve never made it through a a whole word. You look fab and nobody would know looking at you that you’re not sleeping well 🙂
I’m just so excited to see baby-bump “Geo” (That’s Grechen & Leo. You guys don’t combine into”Bennifer” or “J-Rod” but it’s still pretty catchy!) 😉 You look great, the jeans are on-point, and I have absolutely NO idea how to get back to sleep. But the ideas above sound good. Just remember, you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be.
* Gotta’ admit, when you told about the tech saying that he was “just perfect,” I had this image pop into my head of you going, “But what really IS perfect after all? In a metaphysical sense….” 🙂
omg that literally made me laugh out loud. i was tempted, believe me 😉
you know me so well…
XOX
Wait, WUT? You look amazing but I missed announcement. Congrats to you & yours!!!
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My dermatologist says “perfect” at every one of my moles, which always amuses me somewhat because I have hundreds of them. I’m sure it was just your tech’s way of saying they didn’t see any issues with the baby but it definitely would seem weird to me too! I pictured my dermatologist saying “perfect, perfect, perfect” when I read that line, haha.
yes, i got her point, it was just funny, given my “stance” on the word perfect LOL
i guess perfect is good?! !!
haha! Thank you 🙂
During my second pregnancy I had to take a half a unisom every night by the end >< I hated doing it but honestly I couldn't sleep AT ALL otherwise. As soon as she was born I didn't need them anymore, of course. You look amazing in those Mother jeans! I had a pair a few years ago, I sold them in a fit of denim rage (which I go through every now and then) but they were so awesome! Now that I'm back on jeans I regret getting rid of them….
Gretchen I feel you when it comes to sleep. I often have middle of the night insomnia and feel I waste several hours just trying to get back to sleep. Thinking good thoughts that this is temporary for you.
If you’re crazing sweet you may be needing some extra protein and healthy fats – sometimes those sweet cravings are an indication of that and upping your levels on that can really make a difference.
Also – for the sleep issues magnesium glycinate may be very helpful (seek out that particular type of magnesium, not others such as mag oxide, etc.).
Best to you! Pregnancy is quite the ride 🙂
Do you have a pregnancy pillow? I looooooved them.