3×1 Jeans (several years old)
T by Alexander Wang tee (many years old)
Organic by John Patrick potato sweater (also several years old!) |
I have one in “slate” size XS at Slowre!! (it fits more like a small than an XS)
AllBirds wool runners
The Transience Swing bag (gift from the designer to review)
Is this a mid-life crisis? I am feeling antsy.
My back hurts when I wake up in the morning (but only after I have wine and/or bread the night before). I’m not going to lie; I miss the discipline of my forced liquid diet sometimes…
I want to cut off all my hair. Well, not exactly, but I want it shorter, and “choppier.” Darker. And DIFFERENT. SO DIFFERENT.
I want to start carrying a smaller bag. WHY DO I NEED TO HAVE ALL OF THIS STUFF WITH ME ALL THE TIME?? why??
I want to be comfortable wearing some makeup. I like the way I look with a little color on my cheeks, and some eye makeup on. I got my eyebrows done at Benefit last week and I miss doing that. I feel more “put together” generally when I do a little to my face, my hair, and my nails. (I did actually do my nails this morning, but nothing to my hair and face yet!).
I have created this amazing life for myself. Or so I thought. It’s the perfect life for an introvert; I don’t have to interact with people unless I want to. Now, I want to. But momentum is a bitch. I work so hard during the day, and I have to be in my home office for a lot of that time (taking photos, measuring garments, processing consignment). And then, in the evenings, I’m done. Not exhausted, just done with the day. I want to just settle in and relax, not go out and socialize.
Ah, isn’t it funny what happens when we get what we want?? 🙂
Ugh. It’s a whole thing right now.
I need to shift my thinking a bit. I have been lazy and complacent, and it’s making me tired.
I should be so lucky to live to 90, which would indeed make this somewhat of a “mid-life crisis.” But I would like the next 45 years to be more full of LIFE and not as much fear and hesitation as the first 45 were.