This was my outfit yesterday, you saw the tunic in my Spring beauty buys video, I didn’t want to cheat you out of the full picture 😉
To be honest, I’m quite emotional about this picture. As soon as I put these jeans on, I loved them; I forgot how amazing a long, lean pair of jeans looks on me. Not that I’m giving up on slim, ankle length jeans either, because I think they look good too, but I haven’t had a pair of flared jeans that fit in a while, and they’re pretty amazing. Of course, they should be worn with your highest heels, platforms preferably, to complete the 70’s look 😉 Rachel Zoe would approve.
Anyway, when I look at this picture, I see a normal-looking woman. Finally. I don’t see saddlebags, or hips, or bulges anywhere. There’s nothing I want to hide or feel bad about here, I’m perfectly happy with the way I look. This is what I have strived for ALL MY LIFE. Now that it’s here, I’m overwhelmed. My body has truly changed because of Pure Barre and a high(er)-protein diet (and NO GLUTEN – honestly cutting out bread/pasta/etc. has completely changed the way I feel – I don’t even miss it). I finally feel like I AM IN CONTROL – which is truly an amazing feeling, and sadly, one I haven’t felt very often. So often I just let myself dwell too long with my feelings of insecurity or anxiety without taking control and moving on. This is what scares me about losing weight; I’ve done it SOOOO many times before, what’s going to be different about this time? How am I going to keep it off and not fall back into old habits of feeding my emotions?
The truth is, I don’t know, but I just have to keep doing what I’m doing. Anxiety about keeping the weight off won’t help anything, the only thing it will definitely do is keep me from enjoying my moment now. And right now, I am HAPPY. I am so pleased that I’ve been able to turn my body into a machine that performs efficiently for me (it’s strong, able, healthy), and looks good too. I still have a ways to go, but I’m starting to feel thin, and light, and comfortable. And I don’t ever want to feel differently.
**did you guys see the Goldsign sale at Hautelook today? There are so many great styles for around $99 – which is about the best price you’ll get for Goldsign…