Well, it seems as if finally – for now anyway – everything in my life is boiled down to what is most essential. I didn’t consciously set out to get here, but maybe I did? I just didn’t know it haha. I made a series of decisions that led me here, and today I realized how truly simple and wonderful my life really is.
The last months of 2020 I decided to stay mostly off of instagram, and deleted 99% of the marketing emails I receive (I literally get no emails anymore LOL) to avoid the temptation of more clothes and comparing myself to others.
Quitting slowre, for now, also simplified things. It mostly cleared away the anxiety I was feeling about keeping it going + caring for Hawk, but also freed up time for me to devote to things that are more meaningful to me right now, like cooking and cleaning. Seriously. Hawk sleeps for 2-2.5 hours in the afternoon and I am always baking/cooking something during that time, doing laundry, and tidying up/mopping/vacuuming.
It is VERY important to me to keep the house tidy and clean and I do it everyday for my own sanity. I also make everything Hawk eats, and since we’re vegan I bake things with beans in them, make yogurt from tofu, etc., to make sure he gets the right ratios of iron, protein, vitamin c to help absorb the iron, and b12. Whew. That’s a part-time job itself. But it’s also really important to me.
As for getting dressed, it’s all down to what is comfortable and warm these days. And what fits. This sweater I’m wearing doesn’t technically fit very well, but it is warm and mostly fits. I don’t know what I was thinking wearing a light color though. I did manage to make it through breakfast, which was smoothie, frozen raspberries and oatmeal without getting anything on it, but then as we were going up the stairs for his nap Hawk fell against the stair, split his lip and got blood on my shoulder. I’m not worried about the sweater, it will either come out or it won’t – I don’t wear anything too precious to get dirty…
And that’s that. My world is rather small lately, as is everyone’s, and I can’t say I’m unhappy about it. It is full of what is most important, Hawk. And the rest of my family, obviously 😉
How are you? How were your holidays?
And thank you. Thank you for reading, thank you for being you. Thank you.