Bailey 44 Dress via Anthropologie (in size L on ebay, and here’s a “current” version at Anthro) | OMG. so WEIRD!!! here I am wearing it 9/19/2012 just with different shoes. I swear, I didn’t plan it 🙂
Robert Clergerie platform shoes | nearly 8 years old, and still amazing if I may say so…
Balenciaga city bag | secondhand from MOSS designer consignment, here’s a new one in a similar color at Barney’s (mine seems brighter, but this color is very close)
I’ve been struggling a lot lately with my shopping habits: spending too much money and trying to find a balance between buying all the new things I want, and wearing what I already own. What I already own won. I spent most of the days Monday and Tuesday going through my closet to see what I could sell/get rid of and was really startled to discover how small my pile of stuff to get rid of was. Now that I have the body I want, all of the clothes I’ve purchased over the years (which I’ve loved) fit me the way they should. Granted, some things are too big, like jeans, but most of my t-shirts, sweaters, cardigans, etc., still fit okay, at least for layering purposes, and I’m going to keep them.
I have some AMAZING sh*t in my wardrobe. I think I’ve been caught up in that pattern I’ve been in for many years of buying things to fit my body and try to make it look good, when I was NEVER happy with it. Then, once I lost most of the weight I wanted to, I bought EVERYTHING that fit! I would try something on, it looked good, I bought it – whether I needed it or not. Mostly not. I have bought some great pieces the last few years, but I didn’t necessarily realize it until now, because now, they actually FIT. Also I’m becoming more comfortable with my body – and with WHO I AM.
Speaking of WHO I AM. I AM NOT that girl who can wear pattern and color. I’m just not, and it’s okay. I can be Neutral Girl and just add in some pops of color here and there (yellow, orange, burgundy are my preferred colors). It’s time now for me to stop struggling with that and move on. I will always try colors and patterns (like I did with the 3.1 Philip Lim target collection), but it’s okay if I don’t end up keeping and wearing them. I tried the patterns, and I KNOW I looked great in them, but when I looked in the mirror, there was still something “off” about seeing me there, wearing a pattern. Who knows, maybe in a few years I’ll think differently, but for right now, I need to be okay with NOT wearing a lot of patterns and color.
I need to be okay with being me. I’m getting closer, and believe me, I still struggle a lot with FOMO, and not being where “I thought I was going to be” at 40. But something I read, maybe in Oprah magazine, told me to embrace my “onlyness” – that which makes ME unique and my position in the universe special. I am a 40-year professional blogger, married without kids. And that’s okay. (LOL, I make it sound so horrible! it’s not…)
Anyway, this was a long way around to say that basically I’m going to be wearing mostly stuff I already own for a while – like my outfit today. I’m actually quite impressed with my ability to buy things that stand the test of time, like these Robert Clergerie shoes. I know they’re not everyone’s style, but the moment I saw them, I knew they were mine and would serve me well for many years, so I bought them. It’s a damn good thing I can still wear them, given how much they cost, even 7 years ago…
Since I’ve done this closet exercise, I know exactly what I do need to fill some gaps in my wardrobe (burgundy loafers, fitted military jacket, dark wash skinny jeans, structured bag – but more on that in a separate post!) and will be buying accordingly. I’d like to get to the point where I’m only acquiring 2-3 new pieces a season, and definitely ONLY special pieces, because I sure don’t need anymore basics!!!
It’s going to be very hard, because I WANT everything – well, a lot, anyway – which is basically why I started Grechen’s Closet in the first place; as an outlet for my shopping addiction. It’s an interesting conundrum I have now though, isn’t it? I’ve created this “job” that’s fueled by a passion for shopping, but I don’t want to shop anymore. Not entirely true, I LOVE to shop, I just have to know better what to say NO to. And get over the desire to have NEW all the time. Of all the things I’ve done/been through in my life, that certainly can’t be the HARDEST THING EVER, right?
How do you balance wanting new and loving what you already have? do you struggle with it like I do? What’s the oldest thing in your closet?