omg, he looks like such a big boy here…
I miss our walks with my mother in Arkansas so much.
I am a wreck today. The well from which I draw has run dry, but I keep having to try and pull from it.
I’m also due for my period and I usually get some relief when I finally get it. I’ve been tracking migraines, nausea, body aches and anxiety for a couple months and it’s interesting to see when during my cycle those things pop up. Yesterday I had nausea and a migraine, today just nausea and a whole lot of anxiety/emotional instability. I already cried today and it’s 11 AM.
Being a mom is next-level hard. I had no idea. Being home all day with him, and his primary source of entertainment and education is extra-hard. I’m probably not even doing it right. I just try to keep him busy and happy while he’s awake. Every once in a while I’ll look up age-appropriate activities I hadn’t thought of and try some things. And yes, there is screen time most days, usually after five. That is when I hit the wall.
Actually most of the day I have some live stream from explore.org on the tv (we love the bears in Katmai), or the birdfeeders at cornell. Also the BBC has oceanscapes on you tube that he absolutely ADORES; the coral reef is his favorite, he interacts and talks to the fish and seahorses. When I need him to chill out for a minute, I’ll put on Piper from Disney+ or sesame street, although he’s not much interested in sesame street yet. Oh and there’s Raffi. A LOT OF Raffi….
So, yeah, I’m not perfect, and I never thought I’d be a mom who would put something on the TV, but you know…life happens. I hope I’m not scaring him too badly. I always interact with him if he’s watching and talk to him about what he sees, so I feel like it’s not as bad as it could be?
Today is one of those days I just have to get through I think. Not sure how much more I have in me…
I hope you are well!!! Have a wonderful weekend 🙂