323 Maryam pant in deadstock denim | s/m (sold out – here’s a black pair)
Entireworld organic cotton t-shirt | small (gift from the brand a couple years ago)
Nadaam cashmere cardigan | large (a couple years old)
Birkenstock Boston clogs
I started writing this post yesterday, and thank goodness because I don’t know what I have in me right now. Hawk is down for his nap, but before he went down, he pitched a fit on the changing table about getting his diaper changed. He does this now EVERY TIME, and it wears me out. I let him thrash and wear himself out as much as I can, but he’s up on the changing table and can easily fall off. I’ve tried changing him on the floor/standing up, and that doesn’t work either. Anyway, I’m tired already and it’s 1 PM.
Also, before I let myself sit down to write, I prepped some food: baked apples, made Hawk’s blueberry chickpea bites for snacks this week, and made hummus. I do a TON of prep work/cooking every couple of days just to feed Hawk and myself the way I want to. I’m probably a little too obsessed, but I try so hard to pack as much nutritional value into everything I feed my family; it’s one of the most important ways I express my love for them. Leo makes dinner every night and he’s always coming up with interesting, flavorful vegan dishes for us – it’s the way he keeps himself vegan haha (it’s much harder for him than it is for me). And for Leo, food is very much an expression of love.
Moving on though, this is what I wore yesterday, and wow…I felt great in this outfit – I really felt like myself. You guys know how much I love a drop crotch LOL. I’m not sure these pants photograph well (it was tough to find a picture I liked, even though I like the pants) but I have really grown to love them since I bought them a few months ago. I had a hard time at first, and this is only the third time I’ve worn them, but they are comfortable, have large pockets, scratch that denim itch, and are VERY unique. I also happen to think they look very cool. Most people probably don’t but that’s okay, I don’t need anyone to have an opinion one way or another on what I wear.
Clothing is so emotional though. I know that part of why I felt so great yesterday is that I just…felt great. It’s a different level though, when you feel great and you’re wearing something that really syncs with your vibe; it’s just RIGHT. That’s how I felt all day yesterday. Today, I’m warm and comfortable, but I feel like a bit of a slob and sort of bleh. I don’t feel as great today, no, but also, my outfit is nothing special (JP pants, long tee and old, sloppy looking, too small cashmere turtleneck…) so it doesn’t bolster me. Even when no one else sees what you wear, I know it’s still worthwhile to wear things that lift you up – make you feel powerful – special, whatever. I plan on doing that more often.
Finally, after buying nothing in January, I did buy a new pair of Dansko clogs (I KNOW. this is a slightly different style than what I’ve had before and supposed to have a more “generous” fit) this week and another item from Girlfriend Collective. Everything from their new For Everyone collection looks so cozy and good, but all I really need rn is a BIG f’ing hoodie, and so I ordered the hoodie in chai, size 5. For some reason I had a $25 credit and $10 worth of reward points, so I got the price down to $47. SCORE. If you’re in need of a fleece hoodie/jacket, I wear the cropped hoodie (large) I got from them all the time outside (it’s my “coat”) but the new all gender one looks awesome also, I like that it’s longer…
How are you? What did you wear this week that made you feel really good/like yourself?