Veda Thank You Tee (s) | all proceeds benefit the Women’s Prison Association
Eileen Fisher organic cotton jeans (size 4)
James Perse cardigan (size 1)
Robert Clergerie shoes | I kid you not, I bought these shoes in 1999 or 2000,
which makes this pair of shoes nearly 20 yrs old, I think it’s my oldest pair. Whoa.
Reason 4,000,352 why I love Robert Clergerie so much
Marsell 4 Dritta bag
I’ve never regretted, or wanted to delete any post I’ve written here in the last 14 years (huh…april is my blog anniversary! Started in April 2004..). Until Wednesday. I don’t schedule posts, or write them ahead of time, I have always written what I feel like writing WHEN I feel like writing it. And then, I hit publish when I feel like it’s ready.
I’ve never looked back, or second-guessed myself until Wednesday. I felt SO vulnerable after writing that. And like I could be perceived as weak; unable to separate fantasy from reality on social media, and allowing myself to get caught up in it. And then, like I’m unhappy with my life, when I am so privileged. I am not a “slave” to social media, nor am I generally unhappy at all.
When I write such vulnerable, heart-opening posts, it is simply because I have to – it’s what I’ve done for 14 years. Maybe I should go to a therapist for these things (I know I should), but writing them down, getting the thoughts out of my head, in to the world, helps me process them. Ultimately, I look at what I’ve written and realize that I’m giving too much credence to thoughts, which are not real. Other things are more “real” – like timing of exercise, etc., and now that I’ve written them down, they are easier to address and do something about. Then I move on.
I also always find it immensely helpful to read other women’s thoughts and struggles as they go through life; I feel less alone when I can relate to others in a small way. So then, if I appreciate other women’s vulnerability, I must embrace my own, no matter what. Paying it forward is the least I can do.
I no longer regret that post. I get frustrated and anxious for hours sometimes, and then when I’m out, I don’t understand what just happened. How had I felt that way? I enjoy my life! But I think it’s important to also feel all the feelings as they come, move through them and then beyond. I don’t try and fake being “happy” when I’m not feeling it, and that includes here.
Anyway moving on. I couldn’t be more grateful, content and excited about my life. Dagny is here, Leo is here, all my family is healthy and happy. What’s more important?
Last night, Dagny got out from the back yard, something that we try so hard to avoid at all costs. She is a runner, and will go on and on without stopping. She was out for two hours, running in circles, around and in between houses, and until my husband and a friend cornered her in an alley, she wasn’t letting up. I dealt with it without Leo for about an hour, he was driving back from Austin, and had been doing okay, but once he got there, I let go and started feeling despair. I was worried she would run in front of a car, or out on a busy street (she didn’t) and get hit. I was worried she would run farther and farther away and we would loose her. I couldn’t bear it if we lost her.
She is here, and barely moving except to eat; she is exhausted from all that running. Leo and I joke now that we hope she had fun, because she nearly killed us! I could not be more grateful to our friends (who also live next door) for helping as much as they could, in more ways than just trying to get her back for us…
the little monster 🙂
Okay. Last thing. I received my Elizabeth Suzann X Alabama Chanin Marlena midi dress in Ochre yesterday, size medium. I like the fit (it might be a little big on me), and love the cotton (it’s mid-heavy though), but the color is not good with my skintone; I wish it was a little lighter, and more gold. No, sorry, I wish it was black…. I think it’s more of an olive/brown in person, a color I like, but not on me. So, before I return it, I’ll offer it here first to anyone who’s interested – it was $145 including US shipping (NOT in the original packaging though). I will ship to Canada for $15 extra.
First person to email me gets it! grechen (at) slowre.com
I also have my Elizabeth Suzann clyde culottes (size 8, short, black) up on slowre in case you didn’t see and are interested.
Happy Friday!!!! Hope you have a wonderful, beautiful, fulfilling weekend 🙂