I’ve been thinking about age a bit lately. I normally don’t, how old I am isn’t really much of a consideration day to day (I certainly don’t believe in “dressing your age“), but some things are “hitting” me:
- my body seems to be “sore” all the time, especially now that I’m back to Pure Barre. Yes, I’m sore because my body isn’t used to the little movements we do at PB anymore, but aside from that, I have sciatic nerve pain more often, my lower back hurts in the morning (we need a new mattress…), and aches and pains just seem to stick around longer than they used to. My mother tells me I need to get used to it…it doesn’t get better! My foam roller and I are BFFs. That said, I’m impressed at how quickly my body has been able to bounce back and heal from my injury.
- social media. ugh. It makes me feel old, haha. I enjoy instagram, generally, but I’m getting so turned off by all the high-fiving and mutual back-patting that goes on constantly. (sorry, but I just have to scroll right through and ignore all the 10×10 posts now…) It’s feeling increasingly fake and curated to me, and I find that distressing, and isolating. Maybe also, I’m just old and curmudgeonly LOL
- My life is rather too solitary. I enjoy my solitude, very much. But I’m starting to realize that it’s not very good for me. And since I don’t have kids, and we live far away from family, I will need to create my own community to have some sort of social support. This is very hard for me though, and perhaps something I’ll write more about later…
Anyway, on to the questions!
- How old are you?
- How have you adjusted your skincare as you’ve gotten older? Your style? Hair color?
- Is there an age you really enjoyed and would like to go back to? What would you try to tell your younger self about getting older?
- Do you associate/work with people your own age mostly, or younger? older? How does it make you feel? Are you older or younger than your SO? Do you think it matters?
- What is the hardest part of getting older? The best part??
BONUS QUESTION: What’s the most meaningful thing you’ve learned thus far?
How old are you?
I am 45. It’s still so weird to say that/write it. I do not feel like I’m 45. Not that I know what that means. My body is healthier and looks better than it ever has. EVER. I look and feel better than I did in high school 🙂
Honestly, I haven’t changed my skincare much, except within the last month, I’ve realized I don’t want to use even as much as I had been using. Wash my face, some rosehip oil, and that’s it. I do wear “makeup” sometimes, all RMS, but mostly, just sunscreen and call it a day. I never did wear makeup much though, so it’s not very different. I guess up until about 5 years ago I thought I really NEEDED to wear makeup when I left the house, so I did, but not very much, and I started phasing that out when we moved to Texas.
My style is always changing. My penchant for neutrals is constant now (about ten years ago, I did wear some color), and the last five years I’ve changed the way I shop and what I buy in favor of smaller designers and natural fabrics. But you know that already. In terms of the shapes and silhouettes I wear, I still like them all and I love to try new things. Hopefully that will never change 🙂
I’ve been toying with letting my hair go and stopping coloring it (since it’s been a very long time anyway), but I don’t think I really want to do that. I don’t like my natural color at all, and there aren’t enough grays coming in to go full-on yet…
Would you go back to a certain age?
No way, not for all the money/Elizabeth Suzann in the world*. I wouldn’t trade where I am now for anything. I finally feel comfortable in my body, and in my self.
What would you tell your younger self?
Oh, I’d tell her to not even THINK ABOUT GETTING A CREDIT CARD AGAIN, and to let go of all her ideas about what life “should” look like, but I know she wouldn’t listen to me LOL – I’m old enough now to know that change never comes from outside…and no one ever really listens to what anyone else says unless it resonates somehow with what they believe or WANT to believe AND that it is something they are ready to hear. Most things you just have to learn the hard way and over years and years of trial and error.
Leo is 4 years younger than me. Sometimes when we talk about our teens and 20’s there’s a disconnect, because I was in college when he was in high school, but otherwise, it doesn’t seem to make a difference in our relationship at all. I think my ex-husband was also younger than me? But I can’t remember haha…
I have two close friends, one is ten years younger and the other is about the same age. I worry just a teeny bit that I’m too old for my younger friend (I got mistaken for her mother once!!), but not really. Now that I think about it, I’ve always had much younger friends. Other than that, I don’t really have any other associations since I work at home. I would love to socialize/work with more women my age, but the women my age I meet either have kids, or a completely different lifestyle than I do, which makes it tough to socialize. Also, I don’t meet people. That’s a whole other thing.
Hardest part of getting older?
Thinking about losing my parents. I can’t even…
Every single day 🙂 Also, not giving any fucks. Feeling more comfortable and content than ever.
Most meaningful thing I’ve learned?
the only constant is change. Ultra cliche, but the truest thing I’ve ever known
*I wrote that, but now I’m re-thinking LOL – I might go back in time for ALL THE ELIZABETH SUZANN 🙂 But I probably wouldn’t have appreciated it then. Ahha!!