Eileen Fisher harem pants | size medium (regular, not petite)
James Perse ruched 3/4 sleeve top | older style, striped version on sale at Saks off fifth
James Perse exclusive Birkenstocks
Admonish custom leather tote
It took a while for me to convince myself it was okay to wear my harem pants JUST to run to Costco and the post office yesterday. In my mind, I think “what a waste” to wear these to Costco, but why? why is it a waste to wear something I love to do everyday things? My life, my lifestyle, is so casual, that often the only thing I do is go to Pure Barre, and/or Costco, Target or Whole Foods, and spend the rest of my time working at home.
But I love clothes. And I love to WEAR clothes. I have a lot of nice clothes. So why shouldn’t I wear them every day? What’s wrong with harem pants at Costco?
What it boils down to, I think, is that I feel like sometimes my life right now isn’t good enough to wear the things I love. My every day tasks aren’t important enough for for me to “get dressed.” I haven’t always felt this way. Mid-life crisis maybe? NO, definitely.
I really am happy. And satisfied with my life in general, but am feeling also the pull for MORE. What’s next in my life? How can I do more? How can I BE more? And this is what’s triggered my frustration with having clothes I feel like I can’t, or shouldn’t wear every day. Just my overall anxiety about the future I guess.
But dammit. I wore my harem pants to Costco, and while I can’t be sure I didn’t get an awful lot of side-eye, I didn’t care. Because I did feel like me, and not so anxious about the future for an hour or so.
Lesson learned. Wear your clothes.
What do you have that you don’t wear because you feel like your life isn’t “good enough” to wear it? what do you save for special occasions, and then never end up wearing?