WEARING:
Current/Elliot boyfriend jeans – size 30, had for a few weeks, ready to sell
James Perse casual tee
Etoile Isabel Marant sweatshirt
No6 Clogs
Alexander Wang Donna Bag – also ready to sell
Today I did NOT ALLOW myself to change clothes after getting dressed. This may not seem like much, but believe me, it is. I usually change 3-4 times before deciding on a final outfit, and even then, I’m not usually completely happy with my outfit. I can look in the mirror the first time and think “oh, this is good!” and then go back multiple times – by the time I’ve looked in the mirror 4 times, I’m ripping everything off in frustration and throwing my clothes on the closet floor.
Obviously I struggle with self-image and body issues, but on the way to fixing my brain, I also need to fix my closet. Specifically, I need to get rid of things that don’t flatter my body (and by flattering I don’t mean making me look as skinny as possible – thank you Jess for reminding me of this – but enhancing my body as it is, embracing my curves)- that said, I’m still gonna wear my Spanx; nothing wrong with enhancing your curves while smoothing out the “bumps.”
I need my closet to be full of ONLY pieces I can put on and not think about again – things I know will flatter my small waist and curves and will make me feel good. This has been my goal forever, and generally I stick to it, but sometimes I can’t help but get sucked in by trends and pieces that I REALLY want to look good on me, but don’t. Like the Current/Elliot boyfriend jeans I’m wearing today.
So, I’m purging. I got the Current/Elliot jeans recently via Gilt to replace a pair I had a year ago that got too big for me and was so excited to get them. But every time I wear them, I’m disappointed. I love the feel of the denim (so soft) and how comfortable they are, but really, the shape does me no favors. So, before I’m tempted to wear them again, I’ll offer them here for $50 + UPS shipping before I take them to MOSS*.
I’m not trying to achieve perfection. okay. I Am, but I will never get there based on the image of perfection that I hold in my head right now. What I need to do is change that, but in the mean time, not having clothes that frustrate me will help 
I hope.
How do you deal with your perception of how you look? Is it an issue for you? How did you overcome it?
*I also am ready to sell my Alexander Wang donna bag – this is very hard for me because she was my first and is now my ONLY Alexander Wang bag, but she’s just not practical for me anymore. This is a first season Donna bag with perforated leather as a trim and also underneath the zippered opening down the front of the bag. It’s slightly worn, and has some denim staining on the back, but otherwise is in very good shape. I can send pictures to anyone who is SERIOUSLY interested. I’d like to get $400 for it, but will negotiate.
